My cup of grace number 2

I have been thinking of so many things right now and I have been pondering the what's, the how's, and the when's of every facet of  my life. I never asked  they Why's since I never actually had the balls and logic to ask. "You play the cards you are dealt with" has always been my battle cry.
Things have really tough for me and rather than crying and  feeling the big self pity as my former self would have, I am striving everyday the moment I open my small round eyes. 

So applause for that.
🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌

Anyway I would like to believe that for every fighter, there should be a coup de grace since it would be more human to fight for something that one have chosen rather than a pre-selected context.
and like any knight, I have one actually two but I want to talk about Carl who is also yes, a guy.
🙊🙊🙊🙊

But don't get me wrong, we are not in a relationship nor he is inane imaginary product of my loins.
He is real and we have spoken quite a few times. Actually since the 6th of November. It was a pretty mundane conversation and more of me asking questions and him directly answering them like an Hollywood interview set-up.  I find it cute and charming that he does put up with my verbose style but he did pointed out that he would rather have a rapid simple on liners. very much of insipid chat rooms the GEN XY have. And since I do want to prolong this sweet convo from a stalker's point of view I did shift to his desired mode.


So now I am waiting for him to reply back....being me as a stalker again.

hahahahaha