Dear Honesto,
How are you?
I would like to apologize for not writing for a long time. It has been years, wasn't it?
I was running through our conversation and it great was surprise that last was July 13, 2018!
There has been a lot of things that have happened during our lull moments. Don't worry I will tell you one thing at a time until you have totally catch-up with my life. 😅
I am currently in Italy pursuing my Ph.D. in Genetics and Molecular Biology. I am specializing in Plant Molecular Biology of which I know you have expected knowing so much about me. But humor me, can you guess, who is my adviser of my program?
It is Dr. Anca Macovei! My bad, she is Prof. Macovei. She received her professor term last March this year.
I am unsure if you remember her, but she also worked in IRRI back in the day. I have to admit l though, She changed a lot compared to then. Or maybe she was like this even before? I am not entirely sure because people constantly change Honesto. I may be wrong about my presumptions since we never had that much interaction during her Post Doctoral stint in IRRI. We belong to the same lab but have no overlaps with experiments.
Honesto, now that we have had a daily rapport for two years since I came here in the university, I just realized how strong her personality is. And I somehow find her crossed with me most of the time. Don't worry, I have learned to keep myself composed after many incidents with her. But she did break me the last time she yelled at me for writing badly. It was about a poster for the ISSS conference in Paris France.
She doesn't take heed of her words like Ma'am Inez does. She doesn't think twice to rebuke me with her striking words just because of a wrong expression or when I commit mistakes with my work, especially concerned with my writing. There were a lot of things going through my mind at that time Honesto. My last oral exam for Human Genetics and Pathology class was due (and you know this is not my forte); I am rushing things with work because I have to graduate and the seeds from IRRI just came last June, and lastly, there big scare of me graduating without a job of which you know is extremely unsettling because my family needs support. So does Malou, Badeth, and Eju. It made dumb and unfocused. And she saw that and it made her really volatile. That memory was so clear, she spoke with me in a very condescending way. while scratching her head with so much annoyance. Was it annoyance or disgust. It scared me so much and made me cry which further aggravated the situation.
...Those were the days I wish I was Adriano. I have never seen him in a similar situation. And honestly, I am unequivocally envious.
But don't get me wrong Honesto. She is not vile like Prof. Layeta Bucoy. I just find it unsettling. It makes me ask myself if I am a terrible student. If I am really stupid. and If I am really insipid and vapid. If there was no hope and will I ever be at least an okay student that she can work with.
Then again Honesto, maybe, I am sincerely hoping that this is her way of mentoring me.
...So I am requesting help from you, my friend. Please help provide assistance that I may develop more grit. More patience. A more inquisitive persona.
I submitted to her my Results and Discussion part this morning at 7:30 AM today and I have not received any notification from her. I will give her more time until then so I will be writing the other parts of my thesis to finish the complete draft. Wish me luck Honesto!
I hope to hear from you again soon.
Have to go now and pick up my laundry.
Below is my usual view of my room here in Collegio Golgi.
I can wait to go back to Collegio Volta soon.
Sincerely,
Blue.