Monday, October 29, 2012

free time and past entries (part 9)

I was young and I really had too much angst. 
And too much error in writing XD

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****Fuck life back****

It‘s a big what the fuck
“What the fuck” is the quick and innocuous word that I use is something is: a. beyond audible human expression; b. beyond my logical scope, and; c. It’s a handy dandy auto reply if I have really good to say about the certain subject. 
 But in today’s case, it is more appropriate for it to be use as a simple mode of measurement of which, I the slob, reach the ultimate level of regret and self-pity.
I am turning 25 next year. And I haven’t started my any units on my post graduate studies.  I have a stable job of which I am happy but still find it unrewarding since I am deep need of money.  And to make matter worst, things should have been different if I made the right choices.
The right choice.  Having the right choice.  It really easy to dwell in this line that gives you the oblivion of always playing with the imaginative what if’s n scenarios. It’s a total escape goat of humanity, especially the person who is looking back at me in the mirror.  But I just want to rhetorically ask, “ Who in the right mind would stop thy self and be a total looser?”
I think I did.
And being totally fucked up today with life, I would want to fuck life back with the ingenious solution I just thought of half way through writing this, and that is to live life.  True that you always made mistakes in life. But you should also now that the cosmos also wants you to learn that the how plus w stuff is actually co-existing with this “mistakes”. It’s always What, When, Where, and How to do in the aftermath.  Life in general is asking you to lug your bum ass and jack the gas pedal into full throttle because that’s how this world is actually making its way to different break through.

So now after smoking my cigar, I want to get down and get dirty with life. I want to fuck life back with the kama sutra that I know now. 
I’ll live.
11:33 P.M.
December 15, 2010
Mt. Makiling dorm
Los Banos


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