Wishing the opposite of the window

Have you always been constantly changing minds? Have always consider your self a lunatic just because you are always wishing for the opposite of what you’re getting? Well for me I have been since the last time I decided to scoot and find my self some “independence” space. So I decided to end this by finally addressing the issue once and for all.



Every time I was scheduled to go home, I feel sluggish and predominantly against the idea because of two things: one, I am tired/inept/lazy and two, I still wanted to hang out with my friends (minus the work). So after an hour long cognitive debate, I will haul my self to the first jeepney I can get my hands into. The same goes when the week is going to start, I don’t want to leave the house. Annoying it may seem but it is really happening (Hey this might be a good thing for the tagged fame!).

According to my astrological profile, my sign dwells on revolution and monotony; I want constant change but also at the same time, am afraid to do the change. But maybe it is just an unspoken protest of my body due to the conveniences (good food, clean house, cable etc.) I have been so deprived of for the whole week that my body won’t be pried to be inundated again in suburbia instead of a comfy life in the house. Or then again it might be due to the laziness.

This has been my constant struggle as far as I can remember since I started living outside the comfort zone. It has always been wishing to be inside then wishing to be outside the instant your inside. Is this apart of being human? Well I think it is if you’re a lazy bum as I am. The conveniences that I am so accustomed off can be done in a miniscule scale. But the thing is I have to do the old way of heave and push. I know this is a crime! Who said it’s not? But the thing is, being constantly berated by your lousy supervisor and being hunted by my own incompetence made me the way I am now.

Knowing such things, I think I can offer now a solution. First, I have to find a way that I will no longer have the dinning and warring moments with the china man. The first I have to do is blindly grant his requests and act like a zombie. Besides with all the hocus-pocus, I always learn a thing or two (with the help of my very supportive colleagues) secondly, I can always turn on the plurk, twitter, blog, and friends for the bashing and release of utmost steam. For the second one, all I can do is practice and discipline. I really have to if I want to continuously climb the top of the scientific ladder! As they say in the work force, two plus tow is always a four the next day.

So there I am with my self analysis of the problem and simple solutions. Gotta make it work now. Bye!