Tonight

I am quite unstable this afternoon even though I should be celebrating because the team is handling all situation well here in the laboratory.

I think it is because todya is the day that I am going to talk with Monkey.
I am worried and a bit excited in meeting monkey again, but I am wishing that will end tonight. Left didn't mingled with me last night. Maybe I am sending too much message and being too friendly. It was supposed to be me knowing what Left is all about. Fortunately it is also good for me because I am not really in the mood to entertain anyone's feelings right now. There are a lot of people are interested but unfortunately I am already done with such things. M and Monkey are the last in my list. I wanted to be normal. I am throug being different in this field. Its really not good to persue results espcially it the result will only lead to nothing.

Just trying to clam my nerves in the office.

By the wya, the fox is always looking at my back like she is watching something. I can sense and even see her looking (not even glancing) and Big smily is an Associate Sientist now. Hoorah for hhim (genuinely horray )