Crime

I hate my self as looking at the mirror just now.
Pathetic is the only word that I can think of.
Smiling? Who am I kidding?
I can't even do the simpliest fo all things.

She asked why I become so serious,
Is she mad of asking me an horrendous question?!
I've lost my ability to smile because of them!
I fogot how to live a blissfull life!
I forgot to reek in the lingering sense of satisfaction and peace!

I lost my smile for over and over again,
to these shameless, arrogant, hurtful people that I always call "Family"
They said that love begets love but why outside my home, I try so hrad to do this,
but yet all I have are disastrous results?!

Am I really curse to live in pain and shame alone?

Am I?

Why?!

Is my life a real big crime to this world?

Am I?