自分自身のための微笑ちょうど

I just finished watching 100 days with Mr. Arrogant. And somewhat in my deepest solitude, even though I had a grand time watching it again, I felt some what guilty and sad. The heroine strove hard to be with her love one even thought if it means studying around the clock in order for her to fulfill her wish.It was long shot, but she did it with uttermost determination and got in the university. If I only knew what I wanted earlier like her. If only Io knew what path I should be crossing right now. If I only knew what my dreams was. If I only knew of the sacrifice I have to take, for me to get that dream. Seize it with my very hands,I my self, should have moved mountains and rivers way way back in the past.It is too late for someone like me? Is it too difficult to make room for my crummy little self? I want to cry but honestly, I feel so pathetic to do it right now. If maybe I was like Seth, finding out what was really meant for me. Maybe I wasn't undergoing this circumstances now. Maybe I am smiling right at this moment, writing a different entry. One real smile for me. A smile just for my self and not for others. A simple smile of triumph and victory for a job well done.