wakarimasen

Gomen nee.. I am starting to weaken due to some unexpected news. I feel so ill every time I go to work. Then the news about the assistantship and now, I feel so sad when I am here at home. I wish somebody would just lend me a back to cry on because I feel really so sad. And now I think is it affecting my health. There was this one time that I felt dizzy all of a sudden, and I was later notified by the doctors that I had seizures due to a high blood pressure. My heart is still fine but they are afraid that something bad will happen to me if this continues. *sigh* but I am trying my very best to cheer my self. And I think it is working slowly. But at least I am getting some results nee... :)